The "D" Word

Lately G has been really busy and barely has time to even call me. When he does call me he's grouchier than ever.. to the point where I don't even want to talk to him. I know he's stressed about this deployment coming up and he's been really busy training. Things are getting serious and I can see it wearing on him. I don't know what to do.. how to handle it with us being 5,000 miles apart

Do you notice a change in your husband before deployment? What do you do to make things easier?

This and That

Remember how I said I was going on a diet and exercising, because I want this baby weight off! Well I've lost 5 pounds in the past 4 days.. I'd say thats pretty good. So i'm going to go ahead and pat myself on the back;)

I'm on a low carb diet and it worked wonders for my mother in-law. She was probably 180 idk I never asked nor will I ever ask her that but now she's down to 135. If you saw her before and after pictures your jaw would drop. Anyway every meal you can have up to 30 carbs.. i'm slowly winging myself off soda, they are just soo gooooood it's hard to let go lol. But I haven't had one in 2 days.. that good, right? haha.
I work out everyday for 1 hour to 30 minutes depends on what little G is up too. I use a different work out video everyday to switch things up so I don't get bored, i'm having alot of fun with it and i'm enjoying seeing the scale go down each time I weigh myself:)

Enough of the diet stuff.. Happy Valentines Day everyone. My hubby isn't with me but that's okay for now I have Little G to cuddle with.. G bought me flowers but they didn't arrive today, he's going to be livid. Ohhh and G said I could get a IPHONE!! Yayyy, I know i'm behind.. everyone and there mother has an iphone now lol. But I'm getting one tomorrow soooo.. i'm Excited :)

A Beautiful Mess..

Okay I've finally found what I want to call my blog. I know I've changed the name too many times.. But I promise this is the last time. I can officially say my life, my families life is a Beautiful mess. It pretty much sums up everything that has happened this past year. We made the decision for me to come back to the states to have little G and that decision made it to where we would be sperated for two years.. This whole situation is a mess but we got a beautiful child out of it. So it's a Beautiful mess.





This pictures say it all lol

Not going..

Well.. G called me the other day and kept saying how he thought that Little G and I going to Germany was a bad idea. I said fine G we won't go to Germany we'll stay in the states.. G wasn't even going to do the Command sponsorship papers he had been putting it off for a week. So many emotions are going threw me right now, i'm mad because G has constantly been changing his mind about moving our family to Germany. I'm upset because I feel like he doesn't want to try to get our family together before he deploys. I'm irritated because this past year G has been changing his mind off and on I could have a year of college already done. I'm scared of what 2011 has to come for me, not only is G deploying but my dad is too. I'm lost because I don't know what to do from here.. Do I stay with my in-laws where i'm clearly unhappy at because I know no one or do I move back to Texas where i'm from and where my family and friends are and get my own place? I just don't know..

Today

Has been the 6 week mark. Little G is now 6 weeks, it's been 6 weeks since I had my C-section, and 6 weeks means I can finally work out!! Yayyy.. I will admit i've kinda cheated here and there when I felt okay I'd work out. I did once at 4 weeks and last weekend I ran around our land. But today ohh today kicked my butt! I did a work out video for 30 minutes and by the end of the work out section (I could only do the strength part) I was exhausted, but it feels great to work out again. I've missed it! Soo anyway what i'm trying to get at is I wanna loose 30 pounds by April.. Got any diet or exercise tricks? I'd looooove to hear them

Snow!?

&This is what my front yard looks like right now.. and it's still snowing, Hard!

Silver lining of it all?

I talked to G today and his out look on Command sponsorship is much better. He talked to his Platoon leader and I guess he made G realize he needs to stop being so negative about it all. But anyway sometime in April G gets 10 days off for spring break.. and if they really do get these leave days then G and I were talking about flying Little G and I to go see him. I wish we could already be Command sponsored and over there by then but lets face it.. that's just to fast and things in the Army don't happen fast. "Hurry up and... wait" Grrrrr! So maybe I have something to look forward to in April, we'll see. But in the mean time i'm gonna do my research on hotels in Germany and save our pennies.

I can control my hair!!

If there's anything going on in my life that I actually can control, it's my hair! I can't control the way my husbands acting with Command Sponsorship. I can't control how it's all going to turn out. And I definitely can't control whether or not Little G and I even go to Germany. Heck I can't even control if I get 4 or 3 hours of sleep at night, thanks Little G. ha.
So I did it, I cut all of my hair off. Ever since I got pregnant I decided I was going to grow my hair out and I did, but when Little G got here I realized having long hair was not going to cut it. ya know being a mommy and all.. it's kinda hard to find time to pretty yourself up. And when you have long hair it take forever to blow dry and then straighten. Anyway here's the ending result:) ...







It feels nice to have control.. over something, don't ya think?

So close.. I feel like I'm already there?

Okay maybe not, I don't feel like i'm already in Germany. I wish so badly I was there right now. G and I wouldn't be fighting we never fight this bad when were together. We were just so good together, I mean thats why I married the man. I'm so tired of going over hurdles with our marriage. All I want is to be with my husband! For a normal couple thats not a hard concept to grasp at all, but for a couple who's husbands in the military well.. that's asking to much sometimes. I've been doing alot of thinking today, maybe I should say to G "Alright if you think that we don't need to be in Germany, then fine I just want you to focus on deploying. Don't worry about us" But then the other part of me wants to slap myself and say what are you thinking Aimee your family needs to be together, y'all need to try as hard as you can to get over there.

I have been doing as much as I can to get Little G and I there. Yesterday his birth certificate came in the mail now all i'm waiting for is his social security card and we can get his passport. But I was suppose to wait 6 weeks for his B.C. to come in and I applied for it 3 weeks after he was born and got a week later. And the B.C. is all G has left and then he can submit the paperwork. I just feel like God wants Little G and I in Germany. We need to be there to see G off when he deploys and we need to be there when G comes home. I'm just so torn, I can't stand that G is second guessing this. He's so negative, but I kinda figured out why he's being so negative. All his buddies and the people he works with tell him were crazy for trying to get us Command sponsored before he deploys and the last command sponsorship that was done took 6 months. Which really pisses me off, were not crazy for trying to be together! and G is just letting all there talk get to him. I just wanna cry, I'm trying my hardest to get everything done and do what I need to do and I feel like G is just giving 50%. I know Command sponsorship is so depressing, because once he submits the paperwork we have to worry about them loosing it and us having to submit the paperwork all over again. &then we know for sure we won't be together before he deploys.


Btw, thanks for y'alls supportive comments on my last post. I really appreciate it!:)