Your son has cancer..

Caden was diagnosed with Cancer.. While Garrett was in Afghanistan. It all started the week before I went to see my sister Graduate tech school in San angelo. I had taken Caden to the ER, he had been running a fever.. 104. They took an xray of his chest to see if he had RSV. Test came back negetive but the xray looked like he had an enlarged heart. The doctor said don't worry it's probably just a error with the xray but follow up with your doctor when you have time. Well I didn't think it was too important because the ER doctor had reasured me it was no big deal. The next day we went to San angelo, 2 days into the trip Caden was having trouble breathing like something was blocking his airway. (his pediatrician had diagnosed his with asthma) So we gave him a breathing treatment and we thought that helped a little, he didn't weese the entire trip. We headed back home the next day and everything went fine, it was Easter. Although I could tell something was wrong with Caden he was extremely fussy and I don't know how to explain it.. I just knew something was wrong. I brushed it off though because I knew Caden had an appointment with his pediatrician and I'd just talk to it about her tomorrow. The next day we head to the doctor and I tell her about what the ER had said and she sends me next door to get another xray, the xray techs were so sweet and loved caden thought he was the cutest thing in the world, as soon as they took the xray everything changed, they told me to sit outside in the waiting room, then they told me to go talk to Cadens doctor. Then when Cadens doctor came in the room she gave me directions to go to the childrens hospital, so the could take a sono and get a clear picture of what was going on. The doctor told me it was probably just an enlarged thymus and that was normal. We get to the hospital and they take a sono same thing happened with the lady that happened with the xray techs, everything changed. She told me to go wait in the waiting room, well I finally get a call from the doctor on their phone in the waiting room. It's not his thymus, they think it's a tumor... We were sent to the ER immediately then taken to the PICU so we could get ready for his surgery the next day. By then it was probably 10pm, I needed to sent Garrett a red cross message. He was on a mission, I didn't even think he'd be able to get the message.. but he called me at 4am the next day. I never imagined I'd have to tell my husband over the PHONE that our son could possibly have cancer and that he's having surgery in 3 hours. G took it better then I thought he would, but honestly we all took it better then I thought we would. We were in shock, we didn't have time to cry or break down.. our body, our emotions, our hearts were in shock. About 10 hours later the surgent comes out and tells me, while I have all our family (mine and Gs) around me.. that Caden does have cancer.. all I could say was "ok".. "no I don't have any questions".. "Thank you for taking special care of my son".. then I walked off.. all I wanted to do was see my son. The next days were a blurrrr.. until G came home, I never imagined my first "welcome back home from deployment" would be in those circumstances. It's crazy how our lives have changed in a blink of an eye.

This was Caden right before his first surgery.. He had a huge mass on his lung almost completely covering the whole lung.

This was the next day after the surgery, kids are so resilient.

The day caden has surgery to get his port placed in..

Going home after surgery, he is so tough.. Caden is no doubt my HERO!

Had to get his hair shaved off, it was falling out.. bad.

One of the times he has had to have blood.

And this is the most recent picture of Caden, He's now in remission.. doing good. He will have to have chemotherapy until he is 4 years old, he's 18 months today.

Little G's 15 months.

Where does the time go?

So close now, almost done.

School is literally taking control of my life. I only have 7 more weeks till this semester is over, thank god! These last few months of G's deployment are really going to test me. This Deployement has been the hardest year of my life!!

Some things I have to look forward to:
Finals-booo!
Best friends wedding-I'm the maid of honor Ekk:)
Deployments over
Flying to Germany
Traveling Italy.. Yay!!
Move back to Arkansas.. Idk how I feel about this yet.


But I have a question for y'all..
Any of you guys every lived or are living in Fort riley, Kansas?
How do you like it there?
What was it like good/bad?

Algebra :/

This semester is wayyyy harder than last semester. I'm taking A&P 2, English, Psychology-Growth and Development, and Algebra. The only reason this semester is hard for me.. is because of STUPID Algebra. I've never been good at math I barely made B's in high school. But last week I took my first Algebra test and.. Well lets just say I bombed my first Algebra test I'm way to embarrassed to even say what I actually made. I've never failed a College test and I'm really upset about it. How do you even study for math? I'm getting a tutor because I can NOT fail Algebra, failing is NOT an option for me. Why does math have to be so difficult for me, why can't I have my mothers brain when it comes to this. She's a darn Accountant!! Grrr:/


But on a happier note I ordered my brides maid dress for my best friends wedding.. guess what size it is. Go ahead guess!! Okay i'll tell you it's a size 4!!!!!!! Ahhh Can you believe it I'm so happy i've worked my butt off this past year and it definitely paid of. I'm now 133lbs my goals 130, so close:)

Sick, sick and more sick

I've always been a some-what healthy person, barely ever sick. But this year.. wasn't my year, Little G and I have been in and out of the doctors office every week. I'm constantly getting sinus infections and Litle G is on his 4th ear infection. I've done everything in my power to try and prevent us from getting sick but it never fails ear and sinus infections come back to visit.

I have never had this many sinus infectins in my life, the doctors think I have allergies.. I've never had allergies either!! I don't know what is up with me but my body must be drastically changing.. or something. Little G's doctor is talking about getting tubes for his ear, which i'm not looking forward to Putting him to sleep for that :/.. ehh!

On top of us being sick non-stop.. i'm taking 4 classes this semester. Anatomy and physiolgy 2, Algebra, Psychology and English.. so my blogging is going to be limited. But don't give up on me i'll be back each chance I get, Promise:)

R&R is over :/

Yeah it's over and it really stinks. I hate having to get back into my "routine" of being a "single mom". Having G's help with little G was nice.. I could definitely get use to it!
When I got back home from dropping G off at the airport I always run into this Funk that I just can't shake, I hate it! It's that i'm depressed but I don't wanna be depressed, I miss my huband come back home kinda Funk.. ehh! I ended up getting a stomache bug for about 3 days and thank God for G's family that live close by to help I wasn't even able to walk, it was bad.
Anyway after I got sick I was still in that funk and so I randomly decided that I needed to get away before school starts.. Me and little G packed up and went to arkansas.. it's a nice get away from all the drama that me and G had to deal with-with our now ex-friends.. i'll save that for another day of course.
But I definitely think that coming to arkansas has kicked this nasty funk, thank God:)


I'll leave y'all with this amazing picture.. we took these right before G left. I'm inlove with this one!!

December

I love December.
It's always been my favorite month.
When I was a kid it was my favorite month,
Because It was my birthday and ChrPlistmas.
Now there's so many more things that have
happened in my life in December that it really
Holds a special place in my heart now.
First of all it's Little G's birthday
Mine and G's Anniversary
and G's birthday as well.

Plus to top December off with a nice little cherry,
G is going to be home for R&R.
I just love it!!