The best things in life..

Little G always knows how to put a smile on my face. He is such a happy baby and I don't know how I'd get through this deployment without him. When I'm upset all I have to do is look at him, and it never fails he always has a warm, happy smile just waiting for me. God really knew what he was doing when he gave me this amazing child. I needed him, and he knew that. He makes my days better, happier and less lonely.

You'll probably never know that mommy needs you.. more than you need mommy<3

1 month down

The first month of deployment it over!

It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, but then again this month has been pretty busy for me. I got ready for school and while I was running around getting books and classes in order.. I was also running around like a chicken with its head cut off taking Little G to the doctor,.. multiple times! He had this horrible rattling noise in his lungs. The doctor thinks it was because his ear infection and all that drained down to his lungs. I've been having to give him 3 different types of medicine and breathing treeatments.. I'm so glad he's a good baby because he just sat there at took the treatments like a trooper!!

Confused!

I don't know what I did to my blog but it's not putting my blogs in the latest blog box, so Y'all can't read them. I'm trying to figure it out but I'm lost lol so if y'all are still reading my blog (which I hope y'all are) Hang in there i'm gonna figure this out.

Job or No Job?

I guess there has to come a time in the deployment when I need to put my big girl pants on and put a smile on my face. And i'm thinking I need to do that now, this weeks been pretty stressful with registering for classes and trying to firgure out if this new job is really worth it. The job that I applied for was something I really wanted to do and it seemed like they were going to work around my schedule.. well I get on the phone with them this morning and they tell me they want me to miss my first week of school. I got off the phone with her and G called He didn't quite like that idea. So I'm going to decline the offer.. I'm a little upset but I think it's for the best. School right now is the most important thing for me and well having a job is something I don't NEED right now. So for the time being I'm just going to go to school and be a mom:) I think that's enough in its-self!

Oh.. what's going on.

Today started out terrible! Nothing seemed to want to go right for me. I woke up late, getting little G and myself ready this morning seemed impossible, and my books this semester cost more than my rent plus I got a RED message from FRG. I haven't spoke to G for a couple days and it just worried me. I quickly realized I need to live by the rule "No news, is good news"!

Things started to look up after I got the e-mail. I got a JOB, finally! It's just weekends so I still have time to be a mommy:) I'll be working at a place thats kinda like a Nursing home, it'll help me get my foot in the door with Nursing school. &i'll have good letters of recommendations from those nurses!


On another happy note Little G is growing up so fast! Yells Dada all the time, not mama yet:/

Ehh, Go away "lonely FUNK"

My sister and her fiance have been visiting for the past week and they just left a couple days ago. I don't know if it's the fact that G is gone and i'm back to my loneliness or that she's joining the Air force in a couple days and I won't be able to talk to her all the time like usual. I don't know, this is just a rough time in my life. My sisters gone, Dads deployed, &G's deployed.. How in the world is someone suppose to cope with something like this? 3 major blows I'm dealing with right now.. I'm just in a FUNK and I can't get out of it.


I'm sorry this blog is so depressing right now.
What do y'all do when you get this way while hubby is deployed?

A little too lonely

Tonight. Just. Sucks.



There's no other way to put it except tonight sucks. Lonely nights like this really get to me, makes me think, makes me question things, makes me wonder about things. I don't know, I really miss G.. like Alot more on nights like these. On days like these, Doing things on my own constantly on a daily basis.. Alone. Well it gets lonely. I'm sure most of you are reading this saying "Yup, i've been there, done that and have the t-shirt" and I hate complaining like this.. I really do. But it's either complain right now or go cry in my own self pity. &that's not something i'm into doing right now. I'll leave that for the months down the road.. I'm not even done with my first month of this Deployment, how sad. I have been strong, I haven't given myself a chance to cry i've been keeping myself so busy throwing myself into my apartment, constantly cleaning, getting ready for school and taking care of Little G.. But doing all that still leaves these lonely times like right now. Night time's the worst, i'm always alone at night. I'm sleeping in the living room cause I can't face our bed alone right now. I'm so tired of being alone, gosh I hate nights like these.

First Care package

I sent G his first care package, I fit in that tiny small box.. A big box of goldfish, couple bags of beef jerky, cookie cake, gatorade, water, head and body wash, tooth past, tooth brushes, pillow, sheets, mouth wash, paper and pens. Hmm I think thats all, oh and it cost me about $150 total shipping and all.

What do y'all send the hubby when he's away?