Ehh, Go away "lonely FUNK"

My sister and her fiance have been visiting for the past week and they just left a couple days ago. I don't know if it's the fact that G is gone and i'm back to my loneliness or that she's joining the Air force in a couple days and I won't be able to talk to her all the time like usual. I don't know, this is just a rough time in my life. My sisters gone, Dads deployed, &G's deployed.. How in the world is someone suppose to cope with something like this? 3 major blows I'm dealing with right now.. I'm just in a FUNK and I can't get out of it.


I'm sorry this blog is so depressing right now.
What do y'all do when you get this way while hubby is deployed?

A little too lonely

Tonight. Just. Sucks.



There's no other way to put it except tonight sucks. Lonely nights like this really get to me, makes me think, makes me question things, makes me wonder about things. I don't know, I really miss G.. like Alot more on nights like these. On days like these, Doing things on my own constantly on a daily basis.. Alone. Well it gets lonely. I'm sure most of you are reading this saying "Yup, i've been there, done that and have the t-shirt" and I hate complaining like this.. I really do. But it's either complain right now or go cry in my own self pity. &that's not something i'm into doing right now. I'll leave that for the months down the road.. I'm not even done with my first month of this Deployment, how sad. I have been strong, I haven't given myself a chance to cry i've been keeping myself so busy throwing myself into my apartment, constantly cleaning, getting ready for school and taking care of Little G.. But doing all that still leaves these lonely times like right now. Night time's the worst, i'm always alone at night. I'm sleeping in the living room cause I can't face our bed alone right now. I'm so tired of being alone, gosh I hate nights like these.

First Care package

I sent G his first care package, I fit in that tiny small box.. A big box of goldfish, couple bags of beef jerky, cookie cake, gatorade, water, head and body wash, tooth past, tooth brushes, pillow, sheets, mouth wash, paper and pens. Hmm I think thats all, oh and it cost me about $150 total shipping and all.

What do y'all send the hubby when he's away?

New Laptop?

I need to find a new, nice and affordable laptop. I'm sending G mine because it's old and if anything happens to it I won't miss it that much. Well I take that back i'll miss it alot actually lol, i've had it since high school and it's yellow, my favorite color. But I much rather send G my old one and not a new one. I've never bought a laptop and I honestly don't know what to look for.


Sooooo, with that being said.. any advice? How's your laptop?

Feeling like my old self again.

I'm a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. That being said, I didn't quite understand the reason why Garrett decided for us to stay states side. I was very hurt for a long time and honestly questioned our marriage after he did that. But when I moved back home and started hanging out with my old friends and seeing what they were doing with their lives (School). Which if I were somewhere for more than 6 months I would have been in school, But G was always giving me the run around. Your coming to Germany, No your not coming to Germany. Anyway I realized why I was ment to stay states side... atleast what I think the reason is. I was meant to get done with school, I'm looking into an LVN program right now or Cosmetology. I'm leaning towards the LVN program just because in this economy its a more stable job than Cosmo. Anyways before I met Garrett I was a real independent person, I worked 24/7 while I was in school and did NOT depend on a man. When I married Garrett all of that changed, I became dependent on him because I had to quit school and follow him. I ended up not following at all.. I was stuck in a place waiting on G's word of when. I lost myself living with his family and I didn't even know the Aimee I use to be. Now that I'm back home I feel like my old self and I don't think i'd be happier anywhere else then here.

Wordless Wednesday.

DDay..

I'm finally back! Being without interent here in my apartment has been annoying, there has been so many times that I just wanted to get on blog but couldn't.. it's not very good on my Iphone. Everything here is pretty much set up but I don't have any furniture in my room and I need a dresser in ittle G's room. But other than that everythings great I love it here and i'm so glad I decided to go back home. This is where i'm the happiest at this is where all my friends and G's family is.. y'all know I tried living around my family. BIG mess!! But this is home for the time beig, until G come home from deployment. &yup G left for deployment, I honestly don't know what or how to think right now it's not fulling hit me I think because I wasn't there to send him off I was already 5,000 miles away. I just have kind of a lost feeling right now. But I'm thankful I have my friends and family all supporting me throw this time in my life. I'm trying my hardest not to think of the worst and just put all my faith in Gods hands.. and G will come home safe and sound that way. Right now i'm trying to pull that happy place out of me and just keep it going but I know sooner or later i'll break down.. hopefully later.